I could think of
a thousand permutations of events that could have transpired that night.
But most
certainly, none of it included having that closure talk with you. It was long
overdue, but that does not necessarily come with the precedent that I ever expected
it to happen.
If anything, I
have rendered it impossible already. It’s just that we've walked far too long
down our own paths – that I never could have foreseen that fork in the road
that will indefinitely lead us to having that conversation. But there it was
anyway - during an ungodly hour: a knock from the past, an unexpected call.
The conversation
was quick to evolve; from awkward and unsure, to calculated and careful, until
it started to remind me of of how it was like to bust my guts over the exaggerated
humor (which brings out that annoying "gentleman" laugh of yours) our
seamless conversations were always made of back when we used to be best
friends. You see, even after all the shitty things that had to happen, it
caught me by surprise how easy it was to talk to you after all this time. You
still get me, and I still get you. There's still that amazing intellectual
understanding between us. And how even
if you were much likely a blur up until the moment you called, the memories
were quick to unfold. And that's when I realized: you can never completely
erase anyone; there will always be remnants of them that will indefinitely latch
on to your subconscious.
"This is
nice, we get to just laugh about all those things that happened in the
past," you said. I could not have agreed more.
I will not deny
that you occupied quite a large fraction in my life because you really did -
and without fail, you taught me so much. After you, I was never the same again.
My favorite lesson would have to be how pride should never be a part of the
equation when you're in a relationship. Pride breeds hostility, and it does
nothing good for anybody.
I'm glad you made
that split second decision to call me out of the blue and that we patched
things up once and for all. Thank you. You changed a great deal, and might I
say, it's the good kind.
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