Cobwebs,Tug of Wars and Unexpected Detours

If my blog were a shelf, I suppose it would have been infested with cobwebs and a heap load of dust bunnies. That's how badly I've neglected this. So as penance for that, I'm putting up a post in the hopes of proving my theory that when I'm emotionally unstable, my inner Carrie Bradshaw just appears out of thin air (I can't believe I had to google Jessica Parker's character in Sex and the City - that should be common sense at this point). Simply put, I get that itch to just blog.


Ever had a rope burn when playing tug of war? And you're just waiting for either your opponent to give it up already or for your hands to just give in to the friction. So that's basically the best way I can put this situation in a figurative way. Sometimes, its just hard to keep holding on to something that takes a lot out of you- emotionally, mentally. So you let go.


I'm not throwing away anything. I'm giving up for a good reason whether you understand it or not. It's not healthy anymore, everyone sees it. We just choose to remain oblivious to it. It's about time I snap out of it and just do what's right. It's not necessarily the easiest thing, but  the smarter part of me says that it's the best thing to do.


Maybe this time, I wont find myself going through a relapse stage and just stick to this decision.


"Keep yourself busy." Check. Thank you BMS and Finals Week. Special mention to my majors: Hureone!
"Go out with friends." On the list. (Maits and Tiff, i'm sure this will be a good summer for us! Cant wait til you guys come back!)
"Drink Tea Stack." Fast forward to Tuesday so I can do this already please!


The only annoying part is that the pain shoots out of nowhere especially when I'm remembered about the good things. But I know this all takes time. A freakin load of it. No amount of distraction will suffice, I know that. Right about now, being strong is the only option I have left.


Like Johnny Depp says (with his cool and enviable swagger), "Just keep moving forward and dont give a shit about what anybody thinks. Do what you have to do, for you." I think i've done my fair share of giving. Maybe it's about time I play selfish this once.


On a brighter note (i was beginning to feel guilty for being too serious with this post, i ought to lighten things up a bit), I've been so productive. Being given the VP position for the Publications Committee of BMS has been such a blessing; This opportunity couldn't have come at a better time. It was highly unexpected, of course. It was like a sudden detour placed on my usual itinerary since college: Eat. Sleep. Study. Facebook. Twitter. Sleep. To be the next Editor in Chief for Red Ink? It's such a sweet addition to that boring routine. It's a heavy thing to take on; intimidating, really. But despite the cloud of doubt, I'm ready.